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Addicted
Nov. 22nd, 2008 | 12:29 am
I've been hooked to this rather old song. Been in love with it ever since I heard it at school's stadium during the nebo touch. Really awesome song with great lyrics...!
Sway- Bic Runga
Don't stray, don't ever go away
I should be much too smart for this
You know it gets the better of me
Sometimes, when you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you, pull me out in time
Don't let me drown, let me down
I say it's all because of you
And here I go, losing my control
I'm practicing your name so I can say it to your face
It doesn't seem right, to look you in the eye
Let all the things you mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth
Indeed it's time to tell you why
I say it's infinitely true
[CHORUS:]
Say you'll stay, don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way, yeah I need to know
All about you
And there's no cure, and no way to be sure
Why everything's turned inside out
Instilling so much doubt
It makes me so tired - I feel so uninspired
My head is battling with my heart
My logic has been torn apart
And now it all turns sour
Come sweeten every afternoon
[CHORUS TWICE]
It's all because of you
It's all because of you
Now it all turns sour, come sweeten every afternoon
It's time to tell you why, I say it's infinitely true
[CHORUS TWICE]
It's all because of you
It's all because of you
It's all because of you
School has been very tiring the past weeks and i'm glad i'm more or less over with the projects :) except for online entrepreneurship. :\ driving tmr morning, gotta sleep now!!
Sway- Bic Runga
Don't stray, don't ever go away
I should be much too smart for this
You know it gets the better of me
Sometimes, when you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you, pull me out in time
Don't let me drown, let me down
I say it's all because of you
And here I go, losing my control
I'm practicing your name so I can say it to your face
It doesn't seem right, to look you in the eye
Let all the things you mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth
Indeed it's time to tell you why
I say it's infinitely true
[CHORUS:]
Say you'll stay, don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way, yeah I need to know
All about you
And there's no cure, and no way to be sure
Why everything's turned inside out
Instilling so much doubt
It makes me so tired - I feel so uninspired
My head is battling with my heart
My logic has been torn apart
And now it all turns sour
Come sweeten every afternoon
[CHORUS TWICE]
It's all because of you
It's all because of you
Now it all turns sour, come sweeten every afternoon
It's time to tell you why, I say it's infinitely true
[CHORUS TWICE]
It's all because of you
It's all because of you
It's all because of you
School has been very tiring the past weeks and i'm glad i'm more or less over with the projects :) except for online entrepreneurship. :\ driving tmr morning, gotta sleep now!!
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Imma walking zombie
Nov. 13th, 2008 | 07:49 pm
School projects are driving me cra-ay-zyyyyyy! Gosh. No time to write in here. Get back to reports. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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Whispers "Hello, I miss you quite terribly."
Nov. 8th, 2008 | 09:21 pm
mood: indescribable
I miss the times we had, even the small little time spent together- going to school together in the mornings. Right now, I'm really not asking for much time anymore, just that small little time with you, and I will feel contented and appreciate it. Just to have you by my side, I'm happy. Will I ever have it back again? Would you come back, please?
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food for thought
Nov. 7th, 2008 | 12:50 am
More personal thoughts:
The best and most beautiful things in this world cannot be seen or even heard, but must be felt with the heart. Love.
It's wonderful to have someone who can relate to you and understand your thoughts, or always be there for you emotionally/mentally, not neccessarily physically. Some may have one or two, some may have a few more, yet some of the more unfortunate ones won't have at all. However, i'm really thankful that God gave me a few, and make those people part of my life. Because life is a journey full of ups and downs, but its love that keeps that journey worthwhile.
I feel at times in life, we tend to take things for granted. Thats human nature maybe? Sometimes you need someone to point it out to you that you haven't been very appreciative of what people do for you. You just keep taking, and it sort of becomes a "habit" or a norm you don't find it special anymore. That's when the giver feels tired and unappreciated. But its love that makes the giver, keep giving as they want you to be happy. Thats admirable, and unconditional love!
I really need to slow down, and do some soul searching at times. Anyone out there, if I ever took you for granted, I'm really sorry. I'll be more appreciative and not expect anything in return. I must make this change in myself. Yes, I will, in time :)
Time is a powerful tool which will heal all wounds, ease all tension, and most importantly, test people. Will you still hang on? Let nature take its course. No more pressure, no more tensions, no more stress, no more worries!!!
I can finally have a good rest. Thank you dear, you really made me think! hee. (hope you know who you are! ;)) Loves!
The best and most beautiful things in this world cannot be seen or even heard, but must be felt with the heart. Love.
It's wonderful to have someone who can relate to you and understand your thoughts, or always be there for you emotionally/mentally, not neccessarily physically. Some may have one or two, some may have a few more, yet some of the more unfortunate ones won't have at all. However, i'm really thankful that God gave me a few, and make those people part of my life. Because life is a journey full of ups and downs, but its love that keeps that journey worthwhile.
I feel at times in life, we tend to take things for granted. Thats human nature maybe? Sometimes you need someone to point it out to you that you haven't been very appreciative of what people do for you. You just keep taking, and it sort of becomes a "habit" or a norm you don't find it special anymore. That's when the giver feels tired and unappreciated. But its love that makes the giver, keep giving as they want you to be happy. Thats admirable, and unconditional love!
I really need to slow down, and do some soul searching at times. Anyone out there, if I ever took you for granted, I'm really sorry. I'll be more appreciative and not expect anything in return. I must make this change in myself. Yes, I will, in time :)
Time is a powerful tool which will heal all wounds, ease all tension, and most importantly, test people. Will you still hang on? Let nature take its course. No more pressure, no more tensions, no more stress, no more worries!!!
I can finally have a good rest. Thank you dear, you really made me think! hee. (hope you know who you are! ;)) Loves!
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Empty
Nov. 3rd, 2008 | 01:12 am
A final post for the day before I sleep. But its not like I would be able to sleep anyway...
Personal thoughts:
I can imagine myself by the beach, at ecp, at that very spot we sat. At this very moment, i'm holding a kite. The night wind is good for flying kites, too good. The kite flies higher and higher into the night sky. I only see the clouds that take shapes, those that looks like spikey and venus. and the bright stars. I know the kite has gone too far away, and my string is only that long. Do I let it go and let the kite fly away?
Yes, I guess I should. I should not keep the kite attached to me, but let it be free. I've finally decided to let go after I read those words on the message from you in the afternoon. I felt like I died for that 1 minute reading it. My heart died. My motivation and hopes died. I suddenly felt so tired of thinking, worrying, being scared, and getting my hopes raised up for nothing... I think you don't know what you really want. Do you? Although I know what I clearly want, and what/who I strongly feel for, I guess I have to move on. I can't let you treat me like that. What do you take me for? I'm not at your beck and call. I can't be, I'm sorry.
Like what I read on Jaz blog earlier on, the saying goes that you can't enjoy the best of both worlds. It's true, really. As much as I want to change and let you have the best of both worlds, it seems impossible because you are so fickle minded. You can't give me a definite answer.
But today, I took that message as your answer and interpreted that as your decision. We will get better in time. Maybe all we really need is to adjust.
I find it so hard to look at you or be around you. Emotions will take over me. I'm reminded of everything- not the bad things, but the good things. How I wish time could take me back to 2806.
I pick up my phone, wanting to message or call you, but I stop myself and remind myself that I have to move on. Its so so hard and it really really hurts. I've lost faith. I just can't wait for bestie to finish her a levels and twinny to come back. They know how to cheer me up. Well, actually, they dont exactly know how, haha. But it's because of who they are. :)
The nights are extra hard to get by.
I wish I have things to do 24/7
I need anesthetic.
No, what I really need is, you.
Personal thoughts:
I can imagine myself by the beach, at ecp, at that very spot we sat. At this very moment, i'm holding a kite. The night wind is good for flying kites, too good. The kite flies higher and higher into the night sky. I only see the clouds that take shapes, those that looks like spikey and venus. and the bright stars. I know the kite has gone too far away, and my string is only that long. Do I let it go and let the kite fly away?
Yes, I guess I should. I should not keep the kite attached to me, but let it be free. I've finally decided to let go after I read those words on the message from you in the afternoon. I felt like I died for that 1 minute reading it. My heart died. My motivation and hopes died. I suddenly felt so tired of thinking, worrying, being scared, and getting my hopes raised up for nothing... I think you don't know what you really want. Do you? Although I know what I clearly want, and what/who I strongly feel for, I guess I have to move on. I can't let you treat me like that. What do you take me for? I'm not at your beck and call. I can't be, I'm sorry.
Like what I read on Jaz blog earlier on, the saying goes that you can't enjoy the best of both worlds. It's true, really. As much as I want to change and let you have the best of both worlds, it seems impossible because you are so fickle minded. You can't give me a definite answer.
But today, I took that message as your answer and interpreted that as your decision. We will get better in time. Maybe all we really need is to adjust.
I find it so hard to look at you or be around you. Emotions will take over me. I'm reminded of everything- not the bad things, but the good things. How I wish time could take me back to 2806.
I pick up my phone, wanting to message or call you, but I stop myself and remind myself that I have to move on. Its so so hard and it really really hurts. I've lost faith. I just can't wait for bestie to finish her a levels and twinny to come back. They know how to cheer me up. Well, actually, they dont exactly know how, haha. But it's because of who they are. :)
The nights are extra hard to get by.
I wish I have things to do 24/7
I need anesthetic.
No, what I really need is, you.
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Halloween Voodoo
Nov. 2nd, 2008 | 08:02 pm
First of all, HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TWINNY IN PERTH! I MISS YOU CARLOADS AND LOVE YOU TRUCKLOADS AND I WANT YOU HERE IN SINGAPORE LORRYLOADS!!!!!!
Although I'm really not in the mood to post about happy things, I still wanna post the halloween pics up. It was a fun night, cause its the first time a few of us angels go party together! Stayed at syah's uncle's place a.k.a "my place" (inside joke) overnight after the event. hah. Hope these pics brighten up my lj because it has been as dull as how I have been feeling. So down, so empty, so lost, so tired, so...... disappointed. Anyway, yea pictures pictures.
ME AND SUPERSHUK!
( The ghost in you. )
Underneath this smile
My world is slowly caving in
Although I'm really not in the mood to post about happy things, I still wanna post the halloween pics up. It was a fun night, cause its the first time a few of us angels go party together! Stayed at syah's uncle's place a.k.a "my place" (inside joke) overnight after the event. hah. Hope these pics brighten up my lj because it has been as dull as how I have been feeling. So down, so empty, so lost, so tired, so...... disappointed. Anyway, yea pictures pictures.
ME AND SUPERSHUK!
( The ghost in you. )
My world is slowly caving in
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Oct. 30th, 2008 | 01:31 am
my lj is going to be colourful again, in time to come.
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Oct. 30th, 2008 | 01:14 am
I never knew perfection til
I heard you speak, and now it kills me
Just to hear you say the simple things
Now waking up is hard to do
And sleeping is impossible too
Everything is reminding me of you
What can I do?
It’s not right, not OK
Say the words that you say
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?
It’s better that we break…
A fool to let you slip away
I chase you just to hear you say
You’re scared and that you think that I’m insane
The city look so nice from here
Pity I can’t see it clearly
While you’re standing there, it disappears
It disappears
It’s not right, not OK
Say the word it should say
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?
It’s better that we break
Saw you sitting all alone
You’re fragile and you’re cold, but that’s all right
Life these days is getting rough
They’ve knocked you down and beat you up
But it’s just a rollercoaster anyway, yeah
It’s not right, not OK
Say the words that you say
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, not OK
Say the words that you say
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?
It’s better that we break, baby
Emotional rollercoaster. I don't know what future holds for us. But no matter what it is, I am thankful for the happy times we had. I've never felt so blessed and loved before. Good memories will forever be kept close to heart.
P.S I still love you.
It's not the end, it's just the beginning of a brand new start. Am walking out of the shadow into the light.
I heard you speak, and now it kills me
Just to hear you say the simple things
Now waking up is hard to do
And sleeping is impossible too
Everything is reminding me of you
What can I do?
It’s not right, not OK
Say the words that you say
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?
It’s better that we break…
A fool to let you slip away
I chase you just to hear you say
You’re scared and that you think that I’m insane
The city look so nice from here
Pity I can’t see it clearly
While you’re standing there, it disappears
It disappears
It’s not right, not OK
Say the word it should say
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?
It’s better that we break
Saw you sitting all alone
You’re fragile and you’re cold, but that’s all right
Life these days is getting rough
They’ve knocked you down and beat you up
But it’s just a rollercoaster anyway, yeah
It’s not right, not OK
Say the words that you say
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, not OK
Say the words that you say
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?
It’s better that we break, baby
Emotional rollercoaster. I don't know what future holds for us. But no matter what it is, I am thankful for the happy times we had. I've never felt so blessed and loved before. Good memories will forever be kept close to heart.
P.S I still love you.
It's not the end, it's just the beginning of a brand new start. Am walking out of the shadow into the light.
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follow your heart
Oct. 27th, 2008 | 11:02 pm
mood: 
depressed
I don't know how to put things. All I know its that I've never felt so sad before, it's killing me. I cry to sleep, I wake up to reality and cry again. As usual, only my twinny and bestie knows about it & I don't intend to bring it up to anyone because talking about it makes me really upset, I'm afraid I can't hold out. If you, my dear friend, read it here, please don't talk to me about it. I can't be reminded of what's going on right now. I am going to build a brick wall in my mind, blocking out all thoughts regarding this issue..... Is that really possible?
I don't wanna sound like some emo depressed person, but i can't help but let melancholy take charge of me...
I hope you would follow your heart, and make that decision. Whats the point of following your mind and making both parties miserable? I don't understand, i really don't.. I never knew you were forcing yourself to do it. You should have told me. Where is the communication? I regret bringing up the issue. It made you so stressed out? I knew all along, that I cannot lose you. What would I do without you? My life is just so grey and its slowly fading away. When will I cheer up again?
All the more I didn't want to lose you, I changed myself to not let history repeat itself. It still did. Somehow, in a way. I brought forward my lesson learnt, which ruined us? "YOU RUINED EVERYTHING!". Your words echoes in my head. Did I? I'm sorry. I hate myself for building a defensive wall around me. My mistake.
Your mistake? If you cannot commit, don't force yourself to. Why start in the first place? You THOUGHT you can. You thought, who confirm? You always tell me this line. This applies for you too.
It's your mistake, it's my mistake. It really seem like things can't work out anymore. The only thing that keeps us holding on is.........
I don't wanna sound like some emo depressed person, but i can't help but let melancholy take charge of me...
I hope you would follow your heart, and make that decision. Whats the point of following your mind and making both parties miserable? I don't understand, i really don't.. I never knew you were forcing yourself to do it. You should have told me. Where is the communication? I regret bringing up the issue. It made you so stressed out? I knew all along, that I cannot lose you. What would I do without you? My life is just so grey and its slowly fading away. When will I cheer up again?
All the more I didn't want to lose you, I changed myself to not let history repeat itself. It still did. Somehow, in a way. I brought forward my lesson learnt, which ruined us? "YOU RUINED EVERYTHING!". Your words echoes in my head. Did I? I'm sorry. I hate myself for building a defensive wall around me. My mistake.
Your mistake? If you cannot commit, don't force yourself to. Why start in the first place? You THOUGHT you can. You thought, who confirm? You always tell me this line. This applies for you too.
It's your mistake, it's my mistake. It really seem like things can't work out anymore. The only thing that keeps us holding on is.........
